Alberto will be five in August. He’ll be leaving pre-school next week and starting ‘big school’ in September.  I’m not sure how I am going to get through his last week of pre-school, he has been there for such a long time and he has progressed so much in his time there. All of a sudden he seems so grown up and I have been reflecting on what we went through almost five years ago, in contrast to where we are now. I picked up the diary that I wrote to him while we were in hospital, re-reading it takes me back…

7th October 2011

Dear Alberto,

You have a bad infection at the moment that the doctors suspect it might be NEC. It has been very sad to see you looking so weak after you had improved so much over the last few weeks. You are nil-by-mouth, on three kinds of antibiotics, had two further LP’s and they are struggling to site another long line. It isn’t the worst infection you have had but still been one of the hardest to deal with as I have reached my limit and we haven’t coped as well this time.

Steve Jobs, co-founder of Apple, died on Wednesday and lots of his quotes are being shared online. One of my favourites is “Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.”

When I was pregnant, I dreamt of what my baby would grow up to be. I always hoped you’d make a great contribution, whether a doctor, teacher or nurse. However, watching you lying there, with all that you have done in your short little life, I am already so proud. I want to tell everybody ‘Look! that is my son Alberto. With the weight of the world on his shoulders, fighting day and night just to stay alive”

I love you so much,

Mummy

Last week, Alberto’s final report from pre-school arrived. It said “Alberto is very self motivated. He works always to give his best. Although he enjoys the praise he recieves from adults for his work, he is just as rewarded by the satisfaction he gets from the process itself.” – surely he gained these skills during his time in the incubator?